My Life in Quotes #5

July 2014:
And I made myself so strong again somehow.

Don’t wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect.

September 2014:
Now I’m trying to forget him,
Though I feel him in my bones,
And I wonder if he thinks of me at all.

Es tut nur weh, nein, ich will keinen Mann

October 2014:
Well I can’t say that I love you,
I can’t say that I don’t,
I can’t say that I couldn’t,
And I won’t say that I won’t.

Cause when the lights are blinding, I don’t mind it, if you require my shade,
But when the nights are darkest, all I want is for you to shine my way.
And if the only thing that keeps you here, is some echo in the dark,
Let’s set the city in motion, before we fall apart.

Look my eyes are dry, the gift was ours to borrow, it’s as if we always knew,
And I won’t forget what I did for love, what I did for love.

Ooh how I miss you, my symphony played the song that carried you out
Ooh how I miss you, and I, I miss you and I wish you’d stayed

Here’s to us, here’s to love, and all the times that we messed up.

So raise your hands, and celebrate with me
Raise your voice, and sing along, oh please
Raise your glass, cause we all could use a drink sometimes
Celebrate cause life is fine

Don’t, don’t let it start, though in your heart, each step we take, takes us too far,
Don’t, don’t fall for this, from the first kiss we’d start to loose, loose who we are.

Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.

You may have noticed two things in this post. There is a quote here which I’ve already used in one of these (gasp shock horror). I’m not just losing track, it’s a very powerful quote which I have found myself relating to a few times in my life. It may even come up again at some point. Also there is a quote in German, yes I like to listen to Disney songs in German and this line was much better than the English equivalent line. And no I’m not going to translate it for you 😉 . As always these are quotes owned by copyright holders, not my own words, I have merely chosen them to convey a message. I recommend reading the posts in this category in order, starting here. Click here for the next instalment (once it is published).

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My Life in Quotes #4

April 2014:
Will we ever say the words we’re feeling, reach down underneath and tear down all the walls?

Love and loss,
The truth it costs
More than I can spare right now,
Maybe it’s simpler to lie…

And we break down,
And we lose touch,
And sometimes,
We are alone.

May 2014:
Don’t hold me too tightly ‘cos I’ll be reminded of why I wanted you here,
And the last thing I need is for you to believe that there’s anything left that could change,
How I feel

I don’t want it to seem like I don’t care,
It just gets hard for me out there.

 

And I know that I’m making excuses here and not reasons,
And I’ve done you wrong and I’m sorry, I hope you can tell.

When you’re out, on your own,
When you need some time to decide,
Whether you are strong enough,
Whether you should give up or fight,
As you stand on your own, here’s hoping you’ll find It’s a good day, it’s a good day to be alive.

I’m trading places with the person that I thought I was before.

I am fine, I am fine, this could be so much worse.

June 2014:
There were parts of me that loved you, but they ran away too soon,
I am sorry if I hurt you, that wasn’t my intent.

It never gets easier, you just get stronger.

As always these are quotes owned by copyright holders, not my own words, I have merely chosen them to convey a message. I recommend reading the posts in this category in order, starting here. Click here for the next instalment.

Стравствуйте и Спасиво

When I was still doing maths, I always loved the statistics units. If I hadn’t chosen to study languages at uni, I may well have gone for statistics instead. So I should like to look at my stats page for this blog, except I don’t, because it is obviously inaccurate. I mean it frequently tells things like that in the past 12 hours I’ve had 0 views and 2 likes. Don’t know about any of you, but I’ve never been able to click ‘like’ on a blog without seeing it 😛

But there is one part of my stats page which I love; the maps. As I said, I study languages, which involves studying other cultures a lot, so I find it fascinating to see where the people who read my blog posts are.

Most of my views are from the USA, closely followed by the UK. The other countries on my list are: Austria, Ukraine, India, Philippines, Australia, Norway, Israel, Russia, Canada, South Africa and Germany. So I’ve got quite a spread of countries there (just need someone from South America 😛 ) and it is amazing and slightly mind-boggling to think of people all over the world reading things that I’ve written.

The most noticeable thing though is that in the past two months I’ve suddenly been getting a lot of views from Руссия (Russia, although I think that’s in the wrong case), which is quite a coincidence because I’ve just started studying Russian at university, along with German which I’ve already been doing for a few years. The Russian course is pretty intense, as we only have about nine months to get from knowing nothing to post-A-Level standard, but I am enjoying it so far. And I love being able to read more than one alphabet.

So I really just wanted to say welcome to everyone, wherever you are in the world. I’d love to hear in the comments where you are from, anything you want to tell me about your country – and I’m also intrigued as to how people from so many different places have come across my blog!

Wherever you are, I hope you have a great day 🙂

My Life in Quotes #3

January 2013:
You left before I had a chance to say goodbye,
That’s the way life usually is, it just passes you by.
But you can’t hold onto regrets, you can’t look back,
I guess I’ll just be thankful for the times that I had,
With you…I hope I’m just like you.

Like flowers in a big field, all lost and blown away, the letters and the pictures are all that will remain.

February 2013:
She’s searching for a meaning, when all words feel meaningless.

I’m learning how to live without you, though I never thought I would,
And even how to smile again, never thought I could,
And to cherish the heart’s memories, that bring you back to life,
Though some caress me gently, and some cut me like a knife.

So she bides her time, and says a slow goodbye,
Swears by the morning light, she’ll be fine.
Yes she hides her eyes, and though it’s hard some nights,
She’ll take her own sweet time, and she’ll be fine.

March – May 2013:
Life goes on, now you’re gone, it gets better
As the days fall away and the memories fade.
I catch myself smile, when I think of a moment,
That would’ve made you laugh,
And that breaks my heart.

Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralysed by it,
I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it.

I know all your secrets, and you know all of mine,
You’re always there to hold me up when I’m losing my mind.
I wish that I was stronger so that I had more to give,
I’ll share everything I have and we’ll find a way to live.
And I’d just like to say, I thank God that you’re here with me,
And I know you too well to say you’re perfect, but you’ll see,
Oh my sweet love, you’re perfect for me.

Well I just want a reason to hope, a reason to know,
That I should still be here.
Maybe just a glimpse of the light, a patch of blue sky,
Something to believe in.
I just want a reason to hope, a reason to hope,
Want a reason that I should not let go, I want a reason to hope.

June 2013:
Once you go, never, ever, turn around.

Now I’m trying to forget him, though I feel him in my bones, and I wonder if he thinks of me at all.

And all the tears I’ve cried,
If I can make it back I’ll see you on the other side.
And oh, I never learn,
‘Cos I’m a thousand miles from (Atlanta)
Beneath a thousand pounds of hurt.

As always these are quotes owned by copyright holders, not my own words, I have merely chosen them to convey a message. Except in this I have slightly edited one of them; I don’t always feel the need to swap genders in the quotes but for that one I always do. And the bracketed word I like to swap for something else in my head, but I’ve kept the original here. I recommend reading the posts in this category in order, starting here. Click here for the next instalment.

Using My Self-Care Box #3

Why I’m sad: I’m not sad today. In fact I’ve been pretty good. But I realised/remembered that self-care isn’t actually just about cheering yourself up when you feel sad, but stopping yourself from getting down in the first place, so I wanted to put a bit of work into that.
What I’ve got out the box: Bubbles, as ever are a wonderful thing. I also had a look at some of the little random things in there, smiling at the memories they hold, and I had a look through my 100HappyDays book. It was great to look at those photos again, and interesting the way my feelings about some of them had changed in different ways because of things that have happened since. But I can also remember how they made me feel at the time. Finally I picked another random quite and got ‘Bless this day, and sing, and pray, we’ll take this day, for always’. This is part of a song and I think it is a beautiful sentiment, and perfect for an ordinary day which is nothing special, but not bad, and it is special because it’s the only time you’ll ever live it. Over the summer I did actually have a whole post-in-waiting about this song, so maybe I’ll get round to that at some point.
What else is cheering me up: Today is the Birthday of a girl who’s in a lot of my classes, and one of the boys had baked her a deliciously gooey, chocolatey cake, which a group of us sat and ate in a gap between classes. That was nice because, well, it was cake, and it reminded me that I am managing to make friends here. I also had phone conversations with my two best friends (and my old ‘cello teacher who was with one of them at the time) and one of my sisters. It’s always nice to hear them all, and these were all surprise phone calls, which is more exciting than when I ring them.

If you haven’t read my original post about Self-Care Boxes, you can find it here.

What made me happy

On Thursday evening I was feeling pretty rubbish, but yesterday was better. I was still feeling homesick, still struggling to keep up with my uni work, still annoyed about the long walk I have to get anywhere from my accommodation, but there were some things that we making me happy, so lets focus on those.
I think the first main thing yesterday was booking train tickets to visit a couple of my old friends at their uni next weekend. I’ve met so many really nice people here, but I still miss my friends from home and I’ve been feeling like I just need to see someone who actually knows me. So I’ve now got that to look forward to, and I’m really excited about seeing them.
Yesterday evening I went to my first Church Choir rehearsal, which I really enjoyed. We were singing various pieces I didn’t know – lots of sight reading practice! – but also one of my favourite choir pieces, so it was lovely to do that again. And it was just nice to be in a church, and to be singing. That rehearsal cut right across tea-time though, and I was so hungry by the end that I treated myself to some chips from the chip shop on the way back to my flat. There is something so nice about biting into hot chip shop chips when you’re that hungry, and they’re all crispy on the outside and fluffy in the middle and just perfect. I did end up eating a bit too much though.
Then when I got back I went with one of my flatmates to another flat in the building for drinks. This group of people is great fun to drink with, but then it got a bit busy and most of them were going out to a club. I don’t really like clubbing, and don’t want to spend that much money on going out, so I went back to a different flat with a couple of people, where there was a group of Brazilians playing that game where you have to guess what name is stuck on your forehead. Everyone there was really friendly and relaxed, and it was just a nice evening. And I wasn’t ridiculously late to bed, win.
So that was my happy evening yesterday. One other thing which happened on Thursday not Friday, but I still think is worth mentioning, was an argument I had during the break of our two hour German Poetry lecture (it’s not a good time). I was talking to someone who loves poetry, and I complained that it was all too miserable, then we got into a friendly but heated argument about optimism and pessimism. And it was the most fun I’d had all week, it was just the type of conversation I would have with a lot of my friends back home, and I could just let my guard down and say whatever I thought.

I hope something is making you happy today, let me know in the comments what it is 🙂

My Life in Quotes #2

February 2012:
It’s ok, just wait and see, your
String of lights is still bright to me, oh
Who you are is not what you did,
You’re still an innocent

March 2012:
We were young, we were foolish, school books in our arms,
Dodging homework, dodging class, we set off fire alarms.
And what I need to know, is if you love me
And I really need to know if you want me,
When you call…

I’m holding you closer than most, ‘cos you are my heaven.

April 2012:
This is what it feels like,
And this is what it looks like,
And this is your heart beating faster, faster…

‘Cos I know you know it can’t get much better,
Fireworks flying whenever we’re together,
I know you know that I know you love me.

It’s like I’m melting into you,
Give me a reason why we should ever move,
And tell me, you’ll never leave me,
And I’m not crazy, and this is really happening.

May 2012:
Hold me tight don’t let me breathe,
Feeling like you won’t believe…

September 2012:
You know it tears me up inside
To see the feelings that you hide

I wish you saw how great you were
I wish you saw what life was worth

There’s so much out there you could miss
There’s so much life out there to live

There’s not much more that I can do, now the rest is up to you

As always these are quotes owned by copyright holders, not my own words, I have merely chosen them to convey a message. I recommend reading the posts in this category in order, starting here. Click here for the next instalment.