This week I have done something which, for me, was very scary. I confirmed my Uni choices.
I have been trying to decide between two universities ever since I got rejected from my first choice back in January. They both had good things and bad things, and, although I was erring towards one, I could not make the final decision. But then I realised that I never would be completely sure, so it was better to just commit to it, so now instead of wondering which is better I can just accept the choice I’ve made and properly get behind it and start to plan.
Even once I’d thought that though, I was still so terrified that I had to ask my Dad to click the final confirmation button for me, I couldn’t bring myself to do it.
You may wonder what could be so scary about such a decision, but I know I am not the only one, and I think there are many reasons for it.
- Going to uni is, for most people, a big thing, and committing to going to a certain place makes it seem a lot more real, which can be a scary thought.
- If you haven’t been sure which to choose, then like any big decision there is the constant fear that you’re making the wrong choice, again it’s a big decision and you don’t want to end up living and studying in the wrong place for 3 years.
- If the grade requirements for your chosen course are high, or will be a real push to reach, it’s a reminder of how hard you are going to have to work, and that you might still end up being disappointed.
- By choosing one university, you are declining your offers from other places, that’s a possible future life you could have had which is now gone. This may just be me, but there was a while when I was stressing about whether I was meant to go to one place rather than another, what if my future husband is at one, or if one uni will lead me to the life that I’m supposed to live?
So I guess the point of this post is to reassure anyone who is going through a similar thing to me that you are not alone. I am a strong believer that your uni experience is what you make it. If you decide you’re going to have a great time, then where ever you end up, you will have a great time. So yes, it is a scary decision. But research the courses and places, take advice from people who really know you (not just the interfering acquaintances who tell you ‘you should definitely go to such and such a place’), listen to your heart and instincts, and when the time comes and it feels right, just go for it. I hadn’t fully decided, but one night I just suddenly thought ‘I’m going to accept tomorrow’.
This will be my last post as a child! It’s my 18th Birthday very soon, so got the next terrifying step of becoming an adult. I’ll let you know how that goes.